Hello, I hope you're all fine! Since I only had philosophy and Swedish in my last period of the year, I only had two days lasting test week and my summer vacation started today. I'm actually terrified because of that and wish it was August already. School and that constant slight, but tolerable stress have actually helped me to keep myself together and keep my mind busy, so that for example my derealization attacks have somewhat stayed under control. I have no idea how it'll be for the next three months, especially because I'm gonna have to spend the most of the time alone since Tiia is in the psychiatric hospital again for goodness knows how long.

I'm also having the greatest artblock since like.. the spring 2011 which was the worst time for me ever artwise. This seems to be something that's gonna stick around for some time and forcing yourself to paint never does any good. So I'll be on a break from art for as long as this feeling of being stuck lasts. It's a shame because I would've loved to spend all my days just painting now that I would've had time, but I guess it's a big no then, at least for now.

My birthday would be in a week too.. not particularly in the mood for celebrating it in any way. I'm pretty much just in denial about turning 19 already. Oh and don't worry about the emptiness of my profile page, I'll keep it this way until I'll return because my premium is running out soon anyway and I won't bother buy a new one before I'm properly back!

I hope summer will start well for you guys though! See you again, after a while.